it's coming...

Chemo #3 is this Thursday. Not looking forward to it, but with God all things are possible. I will cling to that. 

I've finally figured out how to describe how I feel. The first 10 days, I feel "miserable". The next 7-8 days, I feel "yucky". And the last 3-4 days, I feel "ehh". But since ehh feels pretty good compared to miserable, it's nice to feel ehh.

I'm getting the hang of my side effects and all my meds (numbered 1-11 on my counter). I have found that smoothies, applesauce, and potato salad are consistently tolerable to eat.

We just met with the oncologist and are not planning to scale back my chemo, but instead add another prescription that a friend recommended to manage my digestive tract. Pray that it works! otherwise, I've just doomed myself to another 3 weeks of fighting it. The doc said even though it's still hard to manage, since I've gained back 6 pounds these last 2 weeks (after losing 23), she feels I can do it. 

Pray that I will be brave and bold. Pray that I can endure. Pray for me to remember that this is temporary.

"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." - Paul to the Corinthians