This round, again, day 11 seems to be where I turn a corner. I feel significantly different and for the better. I don't exactly feel good, but I am still encouraged.
My daily routine is still to stay in bed as long as possible. Then I get up and have some breakfast, which exhausts me, so I return to bed for another hour. On my 2nd waking, I'll read a little and listen to a podcast or audiobook, then have 2nd breakfast. My meals are more substantial than the 5-bites, but still small and frequent. Everyday I have visions of accomplishing something and then I try to do any physical activity - like unload a dishwasher - and am exhausted, so I acquiesce and go back to doing nothing. Yay.
What God is teaching me... patience. endurance. reliance on Him. humility. allowing others to serve me. how to sit quietly. that He's with me in the dark valley. cancer does not equal freedom from other difficulties. I am still selfish. I still make foolish choices. Even when I have all the time in the world, I can choose to spend it poorly. I can't always power through.... and yet, while I may not be quick to learn, He is patient to teach. He is there and He is not silent. (Also a book by Francis Schaeffer - highly recommend)
"My soul will boast in the LORD; let the afflicted hear and rejoice." Psalm 34
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