struggling

It's been fun to be in my "best-managed cycle" and feel like "we've got this" just to be humbled again. I do not "have this", I am still at the mercy of my body on chemo. So I am struggling, yet trusting and asking God for mercy to make it through this cycle just as He's brought me through the last four. Thankful that although I am not in complete control of my body, I can trust the One who is. I will rest in that - though I have to fight myself to not be anxious. I will keep up the fight and trust.

From my grandfather's grave: "This poor man called, and the LORD heard him; he saved him out of all his troubles." (Psalm 34)

grateful

I am grateful... I think this has been my best-managed chemo cycle so far. We planned AND followed through on hydration at days 2, 5, & 7 and that seemed to keep me from spiraling into dehydration and all the bad that comes with that. Yay! At the same time, I am feeling the build-up of the chemo and though I feel like we're managing well, the miserableness and other side effects seem to be affecting me longer and more deeply - if that's a thing. The brain fog is real. I am functioning at a slower pace than normal - and that's okay.

Please pray for my body to handle the chemicals as well as possible. I feel it in my teeth, my brain, my skin. Pray for no long-lasting bad effects. 

"I call on you, O God, for you will answer me; give ear to me and hear my prayer. Show the wonder of your great love, you who save by your right hand those who take refuge in you from their foes. Keep me as the apple of your eye; hide me in the shadow of your wings" - Psalm 17

thankful

During this month of thankfulness, I am thankful I was able to go to church today for worship. It has been tough being isolated because I feel so awful most of the time. So, it is a treat to get together with others. I am thankful that this Thursday will be treatment #5 and that before the month is over, I will finish with #6 also. Though it has been challenging, the time has gone by somewhat quickly. Praying for continued endurance as I finish this part of the treatment and more endurance as I head into surgery on December 30 and recovery for the following 4 weeks.